just what I "kneaded"

Have you ever had one of those days where you just want to be alone? Everyone is annoying and you just want more than anything to get in your car and drive far away. Well Saturday was just one of those days. I just woke up annoyed from a dream I had the night before, the weather was gloomy and not helping at all and I was just mad at the world. I just wanted to get away, to get off campus, so since I do not have a car up here I decided to go for a run. Fall, as I have mentioned before is just beautiful, everything about it just calms me. Running through the fallen leaves along side a creek, passing over cute little bridges and by parks where there are actually children playing. It just felt good to be off campus and run. There was a light sprinkle and I could see snow on the tops of the mountains, I wished more than anything that my Arizona blood would allow me to stay outside for longer than an hour but that is just not the case. It is freezing here. So naturally I decided it was going to be a Netflix kind of day.

I spent the rest of the afternoon curled up on the floor in my comforter watching Friday Night Lights, because nothing says fall like football, right? As I sat there crying every time the Panthers (the TV show's football team) won a game I realized that days like the one I was having were okay every once and awhile. I just needed a day to do things for myself. After three episodes, yes, three, I talked with my mom and sisters for awhile. That surprisingly did not make my day better. I found myself longing to be with them. Sarah and Emily were showing all the candy they got from trick or treating and telling me about the haunted house they went to. My mom said the weather was beautiful and that they had just gone on a family walk. My dad had text me a few nights earlier and it just made my week. I know you all probably think I am pathetic, an 18 year old in college who sometimes wants to go home, well guess what? I don't happen to care what you think. I will never apologize for how much I love my family. Saturday I just felt like I have been at an eternal summer camp, but I just need to come to the realization that my parents are not coming to pick me up and that I will probably never live at "home" again. 

So, as you can tell Saturday was not the most fun day I have had up in Utah yet but Saturday night just might have been. I have this roommate who always seems to know when I am down or sad. She always makes sure that I am doing okay and that I am smiling. Yesterday night she did exactly that. I didn't feel like doing anything but then she invited me to go for a drive with her and get Kneaders (desserts are half off after nine). On our drive we just talked about everything. She told me she kept thinking "what would Taylor's mom do when Tay is sad?" that made my heart smile. I do not know how I got so lucky to be blessed with such a thoughtful person in my life like Cassidy Kay Gummersall but I am so thankful for her. It turns out a long talk, cream cheese brownie, and drive to Brigham City was all I really "kneaded" and of course a great friend like Cass to make my not so great day, a pretty incredible night.