i love you a bushel and a peck.

Being on your own is scary, don't get me wrong I love it but at the same time all I want is to be in Peoria, Arizona on Softwind Dr playing soccer in the front yard with bear, driving around playing music with Em, talking about anything and everything with Dayna, hugging my mom, and playing basketball out back with my dad. Yes, you got it, I am finally homesick. I am surprised it took me this long, considering I have the most amazing family in the world. But here in Logan a  little piece of my heart is breaking with every missed soccer game or cross country race. Every missed Sunday dinner made by my dad or lunch note from my mom. It is hard having such wonderful people in your life. I just wish I could be here but there at the same time. I feel out of the loop and all I want is to see them everyday. I know I am where I am suppose to be but I wish they weren't so far away. Thank goodness for technology though, Skype, phone calls, texts, even emails are my favorite things ever. But they are not the same as really being there for everything. I just keep telling myself how lucky am I that I have people in my life that  make saying goodbye so hard. Then I think that I am even luckier because I never really have to say "goodbye" to them. They are stuck with me forever. I just miss the little things, family dinner, watching Reba reruns after school, and believe it or not mom, but I may even miss the chore chart. I miss laughing about nothing and jumping on the trampoline. I miss sitting up in the theater room with Emily watching episode after episode of Gossip Girl. I miss braiding Sarah's hair. I miss Dayna's laugh and our long talks. I miss my mom tucking me into bed every night. I miss my dad's hugs and his cooking. My roommates are great but they don't know how to play traffic or house and there are no Webkinz here or little people to bring to life. Mail time just isn't as fun when you have your own mail key and don't have any one to race you to the mail box. I even miss my sisters taking my clothes so much that I have started telling my roommates to please wear my clothes. There is just a certain bond that comes with having all sisters, it is one that nothing can break. Not even distance. Even though our little family of six is split between three states right now there is nothing in this world that will ever break the bond I have with my sisters, and my mom and dad. I love them more than a blog post could ever convey. So tonight I am sending big hugs and all my love from Logan to Peoria and Rexburg. I love you all a bushel and a Peck and a hug around the neck.